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February 13th, 2012

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10:26 pm - Please make me not so crazy.
I broke up with a friend yesterday. I know that sounds weird but I absolutely had the whole friendship fade-out thing, especially when one of the parties tried to make the friendship work. It was the whole boulder-hill situation, where I feel like I am pushing a boulder up a hill when I know that one day my arms will give out and the boulder will crush me, if that makes any sense.

But the worst part is a part of me doesn't give up. Even in friendship, I romanticize what said friend might do. I will admit, it is rare for me to break up with a friend but when I do, I always secretly hope they will come back and a lot of the times, I make large doors for them, so they can come back into my life. I always want them to show up on my doorstep and say "I'm sorry. I was wrong." As rare as it for me to break up with a friend, it's even more rare that they come back. But I can't help but to hope, to pick at the festering wound. 

I know this is person is not coming back.. Sigh. I just wish I didn't care.

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Date:February 14th, 2012 07:45 pm (UTC)
I am very sorry, dear. But you did the right thing.

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